ok so 3 days ago i get home and mom hands me a note that bud has left for me saying that he has made the decision that our relationship cant work and he isnt ready for this relationship and he wants to see other people...what i dont get is that the night before he was all i love you i cant wait to see you blah blah blah....i know a week or so before we had talked and he said he wanted to see other ppl and call off our engagement but we had talked and what i thought jointly decided to work on the things that were bothering him like how i wasnt raised in the church of christ and how i believe and support gay rights and marriage or in the womans right to choose whether she wants an abortion or not i do not support the act of abortion but i do support a womans rite to choose...anyways when he came and left the note he took the 360 he got me for christmas and the engagement ring and then changed his number and blocked my number from calling his house and took me off his myspace so when i finally got word to him that i wanted my things that were at his house he sent his father over here with my things....he was too much of a coward to break up with me in person let alone bring me my things himself....i want to hate him so bad for the way things turned out but i cant bring myself to do that...i believed every lie he told me...the only thing i can think is that from the intial time he told me he wanted to see the other people he just told me what i wanted to hear so that he could insure he could walk into my house and get back what he gave me....im tired of this ball of tension in my stomach that wont go away....im trying hard not to cry because i know he isnt crying over me but its hard because i really loved him and despite everything i still do but i cant understand why he is treating me like i have the plague when we had that first disscussion he was all oh your my bestfriend and i want us to be friends and now im like so much for being friends....i spent a year being the best girlfriend i thought i could be who i thought he deserved to have and in the end it no i just wasnt good enough and it crushes me
