Sitting here once again at a cross roads in my life. I am wondering so many things. I can't seem to get it right. I have made one decision tonight. I will no longer be walked on. I will no longer allow others to decide who I am as a person. I am stong, kind and unable to be anything but me. I am going to raise my son the best I can. He is a beautiful child who has a voice. He has a mind. I do not believe in a child being seen and not heard. I beleive in listening. If that makes me a messed up mom then so be it. I love my child and in my world he is all I need. During times of trouble I beleive God carries me. Tonight is one of those times. He will lead me down the path I am meant to be in. The crossraods will take me in a new direction. I am loved by my son and my family. Its all I need. My prayer tonight is that God leads me on. I give this to him. Amen.