bloodymistress Owner of thigh high vixen...'s blog: "poem 1"

wings spread

wide

heart torn

open

i fell

and kept

falling

promises

lost and

broken

games you

played with

my heart

and won

my promises

were real

i kept as man

as i could

till you made

it impossible.

moving and

flowing

with every

promise broken

your words

meant nothing

it took such

a long time

for me to realize

this

how long i

believed you

actually loved me

why didnt i see

the signs that

you didnt

earlier

it would have

been so much

less painfull

so much less worry.

new found hope and desire you did not ruin me you did not break me you couldnt even if id let you because i always knew you would leave maybe not right away but eventually you would now your gone and thinking to yourself "oh god what have i done? how could this have happened?" and im here saying "you lost the best thing you ever had and now you cant get it back"

the reason i drown in sadness i burn in anger but never will your words or actions break my spirit again i will over come this with out you you are no longer the reason for my being nor will you ever be again.

ach and break my heart aches and breaks only to be healed again we fall many times before we learn to pick ourselves up again we may ache and break but we are never broken we mend our hearts we heal our souls never will there be an ache or break unable to be fixed even if it feels so.

my guardian walks with me hand in hand my guardian warns me when in going astray my guardian watches over me as i sleep my guardian holds me close when i weep my guardian is my own personal protector but as good a guardian as she is she must sometimes let me go so that i may figure it out for myself

your arms your hands your voice your smell a feeling of extacy your arms no longer wraped around me your hands no longer caress me your voice no longer sooths me your smell no longer surrounds me my extacy fading into the mundane

Now I Must this road that ive walked so long has come to a dead end now i must turn around and find my way down its curves and crossroads now i must become someone i dont want to be and never had any intention of becoming now i must stop thinking of you and think of myself and do what i must do to stop following the same road the road that leads to you and to heartbreak.

once upoon a time i explored i felt i wept i raged now i walk this planet we call home and cant do anything cant explore cant feel cant weep cant rage my life was so intertwined with yours that everything else faded and became obsolete now i must lift my chin up carry my head high and become what i once was.

ANGEL i see her walking in the falling snow barefoot her cloths all white her hair so blond it only gives traces laying against the cloths she walks towards me in all her white glory, beautiful in that untouchable way she tells me to stay still to listen to her to understand her words and she tells me why im here why im important she is my angel in life, in death, in dreams.