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2009 held a lot of ups and downs. There were some changes that transpired and some revelations.
My Son joined the Army National Guard Reserves at the end of 2008 and headed out for Basic training in Feb 13, 09 and was gone until the 3rd of July. Even though at this point he was already a Man, it was the first time we had ever been apart for such a long time. I was scared for what he was about to do and yet excited for his new experience. Yes, I cried!
While he was gone, it was strange being home alone for so long. But I guess it didn't matter too much since most of what I did wasn't any different than if he was at home, I worked all the time and came home and slept. Sad huh? There were no booty calls, well not really.
In March I was hit with a bad infection and had to go on some major antibiotics. I had never had to take so many pills before. The first set was 3600mg of which I had an allergic reaction too so I had to be switched to something else. I am as a rule a very healthy person, so that took a toll on me. It explained why for a good couple of weeks it didn't matter how many energy drinks I would drink, I couldn't sustain any energy, I was always tired. Well I guess my body was busy trying to fight off an infection. Go figure. Yeah, the Doc chewed me out good. He said, had I not finally gone in, I would have ended up on an IV of antibiotics and in the hospital. Ya know you think I would have learned my lesson then and I should go to the Doc now on this other issue that had been bugging me for the last couple of months.. hmmmm
Anyway...the past 18mos now, I have also lost near 70lbs. I have gone from a size 26 to an 18 and just shopping for clothes alone it has been an eye opener. My body sags in places and as my body continues to catch up and form since I have joined the gym, I am sure my clothes shopping isn't over yet.
After Jonathan came back from Basic, things went well. My/Our luck started to go sour in August I guess and for the remainder of the year so to speak so we/I am looking forward to a great 2010.
I bought a new car in August and gave my old one to Jonathan. A week after I bought the car, I had to replace the windshield because of a bad ding that created a spiderweb effect. A week before my 1st car payment, I was side swiped by a non-licensed motorist who didn't even own the car she was driving. That was on Labor Day. It took till the first week of November before I even saw my settlement check for that to get my car fixed.
Unfortunately, just a few days after I got that check, on November 6th, my son called me frantic to tell me he had just rolled the Kia in the Hampton Roads Bridge Tunnel, that he had glass all over him and that he was bleeding everywhere. Imagine laying down on the couch and dozing off and being half coherent getting that kind of a call. My first instinct was to rush to him ofcourse. But after I called my parents to let them know, my Dad said don't and wait for them to call me with what Hospital they have taken him to. He was right ofcourse, as I wouldn't have had been able to get to him since he was IN the tunnel and there was an 8 mile back up to get to the tunnel. As mentioned before this blog, those that knew about the accident, we were blessed in the fact that not only did he manage to walk away from that accident with bumps and scratches and bruises, but so did his 3 other passengers. No other cars were miraculously involved. Needless to say, that settlement check went to taking care of the disposal of the Kia since it wasn't on Full coverage and it was totaled. No medical coverage for Jonathan so you can only imagine what the hospital and Doctor bills have been generated from that night.
Not that what had happened to the new car was bad enough, but in October, before Jonathan's accident, I came home from work one night to find that I had been Burglarized. Oh, finger printing dust powder does NOT clean up easy!
All in all it has been a ROUGH last half to 2009. I say though ya know, shit happens. I could be all woe is me, be really depressed, but you just gotta move on.
On a personal love life kinda level, the guy I was seeing on and off since July 07 and I have called it no more communicado the beginning of December. It actually should have been done in the summer but we hooked up again for god knows why. I guess I was a glutton for punishment, he and I are just on two different playing fields. Even though we both WANT the same exact thing from eachother, we both have VERY different views about how it should be played out. Go figure, if he just wasn't so stubborn he coulda seen how he woulda ended up the big winner. No love loss, just lust.
So, on Jan 12th, Jonathan will be heading to CA for a month to try and get things established and perhaps make the move out there in March. This will be especially hard for me, since not only am I going to loose my son, but I will be alone. It's been me and him against the world all these years, what am I to do now with the thought he isn't going to come home.. But that is where that is concerned. I hope for me to somehow manage to find a way to live my life and find ME. Me free of taking care of someone else and just taking care of ME!
