Ok so I've said before I was going to do pictures. I've got some of me in '06 and some with surgery time frame. This is actually going to be the hardest entry I've done yet.
Granted I'm brutally honest about being fat. Obviously or I wouldn't be doing this journal. But it is easier to talk then then show because I have a massive hang up about how I look. In my mind, no picture of me looks good anymore. Yes I know its a hang up I need to get over and I will. I am working on thinking good about myself and knowing that I can be pretty and that it is ok for me to think good about myself. But even as I bitch and moan to one of my dearest friends about doing this, its like he said, I wouldn't be true to myself if I DIDN'T do this. Hopefully as time goes on it will be easier for me to put pictures in here to show my progress.
So here I go biting the bullet and posting links to pictures. Being honest here, its got my stomach churning and eyes tearing up in anxiety. That's how hard this is lol. Silly me. I know.
The first 2 are the only shots I have of my full body. Taken back in '06
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Katt061.jpg
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Katt065.jpg
These next 2 are a couple from same day as the full body but just top half.
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Katt063.jpg
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Katt062.jpg
This next one is same day as those above but showing my feet (wanted to show off new shoes lol they were my first "girly" pair of shoes in ages and I still have them. I wear them all the time. I will soon get pictures of me with them on again to show the difference in how much smaller my feet have gotten since that day). A little product hit that I don't do but "SAS tripad comfort" shoes are the best I've had. The only shoe's I've got that have lasted more then a few months with just about daily wear. Being a big purrson tends to wear shoe soles out quickly. I've gotten my $70 back many times over both in comfort and it keeping my back from killing me (when my shoe soles break down, my back sends me into so much pain I can hardly walk). I've had these sandals for about 2 years now and they've held up awesomely.
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Katt064.jpg
This next one is day of surgery when I was recovered and put back in my room. Obviously my belly is still bloated from the gas they used to create space to work in. I didn't think to get get straight belly shot before surgery tho. My bad.
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/DayofSurgery8-19-08.jpg
Now the next few are 5 days after surgery.
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Day5e.jpg
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Day5d.jpg
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Day5c.jpg
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Day5b.jpg
This shot is a month or 2 before surgery. Wanted to show a bit of a better one lol.
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/Katt7-08.jpg
These 2 shots are tonight (3 weeks after surgery).
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/9-14-081.jpg
http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Family%20Friends%20and%20Me/9-14-082.jpg
For those that may forget or not know, I'm 5' 11", my highest weight was 438 to 440 (I round up to 440 as I am not sure if I gained anymore after that final weight gain spurt). At last weigh in (2 week check up after surgery) I was down to 352. I lost 18 pounds in 2 weeks after surgery.
So there ya have it. Ya'll finally get to see the real purrson behind the insanity. What you see is Crystal. What you read is Katt. Now I want to get to be CrystalKatt aka Crystal who feels as alive as Katt does when talking and pestering my internet friends. The true me.
More to be written later.
