Crystal clear dreams and blacked out reality. I close my eyes to sleep. I want to enter the world of dreams. A world of fantasy pleasant and clear. A place where everything goes right nothing is wrong. It has become a drug to me. Over powering any sense of reality all that matters, all I want is to visit my wonderful world. I am never lonely I am never sad. Everything I have ever wanted to have and feel is there, surrounding me, pulling me deeper into my addiction. I am free to be how I want to be. Perfect in every way. Then like a whirlwind pulling me away I open my eyes. Reality is here once again all around me covering me like a dark cloud. Once again I begin to start longing for the moment that I can close my eyes again and just be.