Alrighty, well, i've been posting random articles and questions i read online on cosmo's website... pretty interesting stuff I may add!!
Anyways, Other than that, nothing new is going on in my world. which, frankly SUCKS. I dislike boring days/weeks/ etc. I'm moving though.. from this apartment to a new one. (they've taken so long to 'fix' this shit they're just gonna move me...) But I can't complain too much I guess.
And halloween is tomorrow. I'm taking the girls trick or treating. Not sure if I'll dress up or not yet. But it should be fun regardless.
And, I watched 28 weeks later yesterday... awesome movie. I actually really liked it. Although the ending sucked. But, thats life right? lol
Other than all that, just been dealing with some IDIOTS like usual on HERE.... I mean, WOW. I use this like my myspace... I write blogs, I email my friends... load pics, yadda yadda ya. Then somehow I always have some idiot telling me to post naked pics so he can jack off to them... ok BARF?!?!?
For one, I really doubt Andrew wants 600 creepy men jacking off to my pics (or maybe he does.... weirdo... lol j/k)
For two, I don't want 600 creept men jacking off to my picture.
Three, I don't want crazy people going "take a pic of a cucumber in your twat for me"... OMFG people I'm not a porn star for a reason!!! (well other than the i'm too fat to be a porn star, i dislike insanely gross shit... like that)
So thats my rant about that... although I'd love to put the pics of my rings back up, but i get soooo sick of people seeing them and being like "take more pics like that it's soo hot" and all this other bullshit....
ANYHOW...
Other than that, I'm not sure what else to say... I suppose I could go into my dream last night. It was kinda sad...
Being the idiot I always am, I was going through some old pics... I found these pics of me at my jr prom. I'm totally gonna upload the pics though, cuz DAMN i was hot... size 3 and looked like a lil model... yay me! OK not the point. Anyways, SOO, my jr prom... I was with Lindon (Cue 'awwwww') And so, yeah i saw all these pictures of him and I. I don't care who says what.... you can never forget your first love. And i loved him... with all my heart. I would have done anything for him. But, I just wasn't good enough for him I guess. SOO anyhow... off that sad trip... I had this dream about him... and I ran into him at that one big waterfall... ya know... that everyone goes to... it's like huge... having a blonde moment. ANyways, we were on this boat, at this waterfall, and I was there with someone, but i don't know who. (you know how you know certain things in a dream but you dont' know specifics) anyhow, whomever the said guy was i was either married or engaged to him.... and then lindon was there. And he was telling me how he had been married and got a divorce because he realized he couldn't live his life without me... and i jumped off the boat... (which is weird cuz i HATE fishy water) So it was weird... I didn't wake up all sad and stuff like I do sometimes, it was just, odd... but in a sad way. I mean, I think I'll always love him, in some way shape or form. I've spent what 7 years of my life in love with the guy. Do i want him back??? NNOOO... GOD NO. I don't care what he said or how much begging he did... i want nothing to do with him. He treated me like shit... and i didn't deserve it... I just didn't. He blamed LEXI for him not being able to be with me... fucking asshole... I dunno. I just know that i still love him in a way... but at the same time, hate who he is. Its weird... And i honestly never thought I'd be able to love someone like I loved him. I've gone through how many boyfriends? I always found something wrong with them. Stupid things... just to break up with them.... I was pretty mean... and bitchy. But no one could replace lindon... of course, no one can replace him. But, not to sound cheesy, cuz I know this is going to... but I found someone better for me. I know you're all like **uuugggghhhhh not the andrew thing again* Lol sooo sorry.... but yeah. I really adore this guy. I mean, it's weird, I was talking to chastine about it too... in all the little ways (as well as the important ways) he's perfect for me... she knows why.... we've talked a lot about it... and, I don't know where this relationship with him will lead... but I know one thing... I've been able to overcome my "i'll never love someone as much as I loved Lindon" thing... because I love Andrew more....
Ok, I'll shut up about it... cuz i know its pretty cheesy.. lol... anyhow... I'm about to go shopping.... and i should probably shower before said shopping, so i'm gonna go here in a bit....
laters
