I had an amazing moment of clarity last night. I spoke with a dear friend/old flame of mine, and even though harsh and blunt with her words, she assisted me with a glimpse into my past, my present, and my future. Long have I held onto guilt over past love failures whether or not they were my fault per se. I woke up knowing that I need a detox of my heart and soul to wash all that away, and embrace the core of life, such as the joy of just being alive. Here I was, in turmoil because it seemed the devil was laughing at me and I was the butt of a cruel cosmic joke as the train of age sped toward me on a collision course, and I stood alone in it's path frozen and unable to move. I wake today an empowered man, and I feel alive. I have conquered that final fear and I've slain the demons of guilt that helped feed that damned dirty fear of being alone. I am ready to truly live life now. You have to love clarity.
