Catalyst of Insanity TO Girl's blog: "and so it comes full round"

round and round we go i kinda end in the same place over and over and i guess thats not bad i feel very alone i just feeling thsi huge longing for conection to something to hae smeone e close to me i miss being loved i miss being sun too i miss walking on teh grass laying down and seeing shooting stars i miss someoen having a fire for me and having one for them i am so alone these days so many ppl here but alone at the same time every night i am alone with my thoughts and i see allthese smiling faces wish for that it funny this song touches me soo i can memeber saying i wanna see u and hold u and it ment the same thing not to hold them but hold them freeze the moment and keep it i i keep looking at snap shots in my head of better times and longing for somethign tp make me feel real i feel so alone so unreal its amazing how alone u can be with all the ppl in the world with u how isolated desire can be and now nothing feels right when ur in peaces

i have been lettin myself down a lil i missed school this week 3 days 6 classes i am very assamed of my self ... i was sick one day slpt the other and ... looks down just not good form at all i hate when i let me down

hey all soooo Moving day for anyone who dosnt know i might not have net for a while so try not to miss me too much mwah if u have my cell number give me a call i gonna be lonely and we all no me with my jumpy nights Dario god i miss u alreay love u muchly kisses

This week as all about lil steps and goal seeting seeing if u want it reach out go get it and hell ya look its urs ... its been about differnt spin on things mind sets and gorth thats be teh teme of the year really i had to leave school fir a while i really didnt think i was gonna go to go back but this weekteh clouds opened up spilled out fate after the dr office on a whim we went apartment hunting One lovely older building stood otu with big greanna trees and a wishing well truns out my aunt used to love there when she was my age i was draw to it she was going to look as we jotted down the number this lovely old woman walked up and it trus out she qas he land lord next thing u know wwerre seeing and doing papaer work mind u b4 we can sign we have to confrim school is on i being scard out of my wits was gonna dance around what needed to be done who i needed to call but now had a reason i spoke to david and next thing u know 2 months maybe never till school starts becomes MAY 5th ahhhhhh OMG so now in about 3 hours i went from hopeless gonna face them see if they stil want me to i go back in 3 weeks wiow wril wind :D spent the night celebrating with my aunt god am i beat bee up over 30 some hours but today was worth it She's back :P