I have a friend that I met through CT back last Fall who not only connected up with me through CT, but also MS and a few other avenues. He flooded me with attention from October through December and then suddenly it stopped.
When I talked with other friends through CT and other places, they all seemed to think that he had found someone else to put all of his attention towards, which could have been, but he never just came out and said anything, although the point of contacts were getting further and further apart.
Yesterday, while at work I discovered that he was gone from my family list on CT. Double checking MS, he was gone from my top 24 as well. After going to his CT page, he has not only eliminated me from his family list, but everyone. He has done the same thing on MS. He also has had a business website of his own and it is totally gone. To me, that is a sign of tidying things up before something more bizarre happens.
When my husband had died from his heart attack, I discovered that he, too, had tidied things up -- closed out bank accounts, destroyed pics he had taken of me, destroyed any XXX tapes that he had bought at Megaplex as well as his Xrated magazines. Just bizzare to me. To me, my husband must have known that he was dying.
About a week ago to this day, I received an email from him stating:
"Hi Kat, Sorry I have been "gone". Life has not been easy since I decided to change everything. In fact I wasn't sure for a long time if i was going to pull it off. I was so far in debt anyway then Strega [his dog] got sick, I had to let J** keep her. Dad had more eye troubles and I almost got fired. T**** got written up which caused her to quit, I wonder each day when i get there if I still have a job. I've been trying to find some extra job to pull myself out..but I haven't been able to find anything that has the right hours and where I don't have to walk around. I went to the doctor again yesterday and he gave me 2 referrals...but I don't know if that will help. I'm just tired of the whole fight. I guess I got spoiled not worrying about what stuff costs, and now I'm paying the price. I'll eventually be alright I guess. I always seem to survive....i just haven't been in the "mood" to talk to anyone. I apologize for not staying in touch.... I'll try to drop a line more often..one of these days maybe my life will show some sign of being ok.... I just don't know right now. K****"
Was that an outcry that was pre-empting all the bizarre activities of last night???
Am I reading much more into these bizarre events than I should because of my past experience with my husband dying???
Am I being too sensitive???
I am a very caring, sensitive person who loves to help people whenever and wherever and however I could possibly do so. I feel so helpless not knowing, which is the problem in having long distance friends that you primarily keep in touch through programs like CT, IM programs, emails, etc (all pretty much virtual) and telephone technology on occasion.
The hazards of meeting people virtually is that when they drop off all connectivity, you simply cannot have the closure from the knowing of what exactly is happening.
I just find it extremely bizarre behavior; don't you???
