NTZ's blog: "A Return Of Thought"

I lay here on this january evening, i'm grieving. Thinking on these emotions and every thing i'm feeling. Wishing a few things in my life was sorta different. People in my life that has became sorta missing. Here and not here, hocus pocus disappear. I'm in the act to lose again, visiting another fear. You speak, I dont even hear. I speak, you can never hear. So these words on screens be a release. Appears facebook walls only listens to my jeers. Not a star on a stage so there will never be a cheer. Go only refers to leave get out of here. Not keep going on, be strong. Please win. I end this little thought loving on a friend. A friend that wasn't friend when changes met begin. And when, those many months saw refusal to end. Yet battle hard just to stay close to my friend. I need to feel some more. I need to be even more. I need you some more. I need...I dont know no more. I need a sign. Some help for my mind. Some time. A line or two to speak better towards you. Some pine sol cleaner to mop up the mess. The rest of your head softly laid on a chest of a man. Sorta boying but again, you the current friend of the mass production of unsure of what began. Till it end..