This is a new blog for me since like feburary but I need to get these thoughts out of my head. I feel like I have a whole where my heart should be. He has taken the breath away from me and I feel like I am dying and I want out. Have you ever cared so much that it gets to a point that there is nothing left of you because you have given all you are to show someone how much you care? Well no more. I am starting over and starting new I want something better for my life and I am tired of feeling dead. He says that I kill him daily... Well I hate to break it to him I have died ever day for the past year and he has done nothing to take the pain away. I don't hate him. I am just angry. He wants another woman, someone as he puts it that won't hurt him or betray him. WELL HE BETRAYED ME SO MANY TIMES....... , why does it matter anymore but apparently to him it does. He has feelings for another woman and wants someone with a better body, pretty, and younger. I am too ugly, too fat, and just not enough for him. Well thats fine because I am enough to please my self. And that is all I care about at this point. To those who know me now they know my daily barage of hate and anger I am put through by him and I am leaving for home. I am going back to georgia for a fresh life. Maybe I might see old friends hopefully I will meet new friends, but I know that I will not ever find a reason for nothing but the need of family right now. I love my family and one day I wish to have one of my own but we will see what GOD has in store for me. I wish this man that I speak of goo luck in the future and the only other advice I can give is to grow up and fast.
goodbye for now my friends.
Heather Lisa Marie Lane Zielonski
