Damn
I never meant to hurt anyone.
Especially myself.
I was always honest from the start.
I have so many things happening all at once.
I need to weigh them all.
Seems as though my head and heart are at war.
Both sides pulling me apart.
I am so confused.
There are things that are very clear.
And yet
so damned fuzzy.
I want to be happy.
I want to be loved.
I want to love.
Brick by brick my walls come down.
Yet it feels like something is right behind me
Building them up again.
Like a gremlin, or a nasty old troll.
I know I hold the power.
I know I hold all the cards for my battle.
I just need to get hugged really bad.
:(
