Sexy Shell's blog: "Stories"

Fighting the urges

I pulled into the parking lot and parked my Volvo.  I searched the parking lot to find Bella’s face.  Her Old beat up Chevy pickup was where she always parked it, but she was nowhere to be seen. I anticipated on seeing her, which made trig and history go by extremely slow.  Finally History was over and it was time for lunch, I rushed to the cafeteria in anticipation.  Bella was in the lunch line with Jessica and Mike; she didn’t get any food just a soda.  She returned to her table and I started talking with Emmett and Jasper we were laughing at our hair entirely saturated with melting snow.  Rosalie and Alice leaned away from Emmett as he shook his wet hair in their direction.  I listened hard to hear the thoughts of the people sitting with Bella.  Apparently Bella was staring at me; at least that’s what I was reading in Jessica’s mind along with some other stuff I already knew. I looked over and met Bella’s eyes.  She dropped her head letting her hair fall to conceal her face.   

The Bell rang and I waited a few minutes before heading to class.  After everyone was cleared out of the cafeteria I headed to class.  Sure enough there sitting at my lab table was Bella, doodling idly on her notebook. “Hello” she looked up in surprised, shocked that I was speaking to her.  “My Name is Edward Cullen” I said “I didn’t get the chance to introduce myself last week, you must be Bella Swan” She looked utterly confused and spoke softly “how do you know my name?” I laughed my soft enchanting laugh “Oh I think everyone knows your name, we’ve been anticipating your arrival”.  She grimaced and replied “No, I meant why, did you call me Bella?” This confused me for a split second “would you prefer I call you Isabella?” “No I like Bella, but Charlie, I mean my father probably calls me Isabella behind my back, that’s what everyone seems to know me here as”. “Oh” there goes a mistake on my part I thought to myself.  Bella Looked awkwardly away. 

Thankfully Mr. Banner started the class by handing out microscopes and slides.  I held my breath while being this close to Bella for I didn’t know whether I would be able to deal with her scent or not.  I slide the microscope towards her “Ladies first” I smiled at her crookedly “or I could start if you wish”  

“No I’ll start” She snapped the first slide into place under the microscope adjusting the zoom.  She studied the slide briefly “Prophase.”

 “May I take a look?” I asked her as she started to remove the slide.  I touched her hand to stop her as I asked.  She had to have felt how cold my hands were, because she quickly jerked her hand away.  “

I’m sorry” I muttered as I pulled my hand back immediately.  I reached for the microscope and examined the slide for a short second. 

“Prophase” I agreed writing it down.  I quickly switched the slides and glanced at it “Anaphase” I murmured and wrote it down.

“May I” She said I smirked and pushed the microscope to her.  She looked through the eyepiece eagerly, only to be disappointed, I was right again.

“Slide three” She said as she held out her hand.  I took the third slide out of the case and handed it to her, being careful not to touch her skin again.  She took a bit longer with this slide “Interphase” she said pushing the microscope back to me.  I took a quick look and wrote it down.

We finished the lab before everyone else.  I noticed Mike and his partner struggling with two slides, switching them again and again, another group had their books open under the table.

I sat there watching her every move.  Surprisingly I did not feel the urge to kill her, something different came over me, I had this sudden urge to protect her, to keep her safe from harm.  She caught me staring at her “did you get contacts?” she blurted out.  I was puzzled by her unexpected question “No.” “Oh” she mumbled to herself.  “Seemed like there was something different about your eyes”

I shrugged and looked away.  I hoped that she hadn’t noticed, the last time I seen her, my eyes were black.    She looked down and seen my hands clenched into fists again.  Mr. Banner approached our table at that moment, to see why we weren’t working.  He looked over our shoulders intently and checked through our answers.  “So Edward don’t you think Isabella should have gotten a chance with the microscope?” “Bella” I corrected him.  “Actually she identified 3 out of the five”

Mr. Banner looked at Bella “Have you done the lab before?”   She smiled sheepishly “Not with a root onion though, with a whitefish blastula”  “My guess is that you were in an advanced placement program in Phoenix.” “Yes” she replied.  “Well I guess that making you two lab partners was quite the perfect match” he said as he walked away from our lab table.

“Such ashamed about the snow huh” I said.  “No not really” she replied.  “Oh you don’t like the snow?”  “No I don’t like anything that’s cold and wet”  “Then Forks must be a difficult place for you to live” “You have no idea” she muttered darkly.  “Then why did you come here to live with your father?” I asked.  “It’s……complicated” she replied looking down at her note book.  “I have all the time in the world” I replied how far from the truth was it really. 

She paused for a long moment then met my gaze.  “My mother got remarried” she said.  “That don’t sound so complex” I disagreed.  “When did this happen?”  “Last September” she said with a saddened voice.  “Do you not like him?” I asked suddenly interested in her life, although I knew I shouldn’t be.  “Phil’s fine, too young, but nice enough”  “So how come you didn’t stay with them?”

She stared at me with confusion in her eyes, like she was wondering why all of a sudden he is interested in my dull life’s story.  “Phil travels a lot.  He’s plays baseball for a living” she half smiled. “Hmmm anyone I might know” I asked smiling.  “Probably not.”  He doesn’t play that well.  Strictly minor league, but he moves around a lot.” 

“So your mother sent you here so she could travel with him.”  She rose her chin ever so slightly “No she didn’t send me here.  I sent myself” This confused me, she didn’t like the cold yet she brought herself to Forks when she could’ve stay with her mother and stepfather.  “I don’t understand” I said to her.  There was a somber look on her face when she continued talking.  “She stayed with me for awhile, but she missed him.  It made her very unhappy… so I decided it was time to spend some quality time with my father.”  Her voice sounded so glum by the time she had finished her explanation.

“But now you are unhappy” I pointed out.  “And….” She replied.  “Well that just doesn’t seem fair” I said my eyes more intense now then they had been at the beginning of this conversation.  She laughed “Well hasn’t anyone told you that, life isn’t fair?”  “I’ve heard that somewhere before” I agreed dryly.  I knew this more about this than anyone else.

I should’ve known the bell was about to ring to end class, but I was so enthralled in our conversation that I wasn’t even paying attention.  She got up from her seat and started for the door, I followed her out slowly.  This ended our conversation for the day, but tomorrow I would indulge in another one with her hopefully.  I had succeeded in not giving in to the urge to kill her, but now the urge to protect her was stronger than the urge to kill her.