I hear the screams at night .. i remember the fear ... i remember the way we were al afraid of him .. afraid hed come back and hurt us .. i remember not being allowed outsdie to play with the other kids .. i was five when i first met him .. now im almost 30 .. i had nightmares into my late twenties of all the horrible things he did and said our family .. And still over time i learnt that if i kept this hate in my heart it would poison my heart and soul .. so eventually and almost reluctantly i forgave him , a huge weight lifted from my shoulders .. life is its own karma .. hes dying now .. and barely a soul cares .. and strangely enough i care more then most ..
Cruel cruel man ...
u never seemed to care
never seemed to be there ..
too manys nights , days in fear
wisihing you were never here..
And now as life goes on ..
the fear is gone
the heart is still healing
the family is stronger then you would ever believe
and now your the one who hurts , all the horrible thing u did to your body .. your body has finally said enough ..
more then you ever grow
i still live on ..
my family lives on too
what hasn't killed us has only made us stronger ..
and everytime u hit her
i felt her tears ..
i felt her pain ..
and since i've never been the same
so cold and cruel
i wish i could wish u well ..
i really wish i could .. but in essence u were no good ..
not kind
not caring
heartlessly cruel
My mother love made her a fool
a fool to your deciet and unspeakable ways.
But i still loved her dearly to the end of her days .