i am so damn tired of everyone asking and wondering if im gay just because i havent dated in 5 years and had sex in a long time. just because i have taken myself out of the market so i can try to have my own life. i want to get to know me. i dont want to keep having close calls. i dont want something to happen with someone that i dont give a shit about. i would like to have some damn control over my pathetic dull life. i dont need some stupid dumb bitch trying to run and control my life. i do and have my eye on a few people but due to some certain restrictions they dont work out. that doesnt discourage me one bit. im just actually being selective now. some may say im in no position to do so witha record like mine. if you dont know ive only actually dated a few people. more flings then relationships. no regrets just wish i things could have played out a bit better. this doesnt mean im against hook-ups now. i do try to stay away from them. but feelings tend to get involed and that just makes it harder. so something will happen one of these days and when it does it will all be worth it. ive got plenty of time. it may be a bit hard for me to find someone but i trust that some higher power will grant me with someone great that will understand me and get me and be secure with herself and with me. we can be odd together.
