one day when im older ill be able to raise you to grow up big and strong. ill be the best mom i can be and i will make sure you have everything you need.ill teach you all the good things i know like how to swim, cook and be silly.ill help you with math and spelling and encourage you to do what ever it is you want to do with your life. ive made so many mistakes in my life and i wish i could change some of the things ive done but thats just wishful thinking.i screwed up big time these past couple months and its not fair im sorry.for a second i thought about how things would be if i hadnt screwed up and if i had moved out sooner than maybe you would have had a better chance. maybe i would have found out sooner and maybe you wouldnt have been put through so much.you made me realize how much i really do care and how right people were. i do honestly want to be a mom someday weather im with the right guy or weather i have to do it by my self but i want to make sure i have a stable place to live and a good environment and the ability to take care of you the way a child needs to be cared for. if i dont ever get the chance again i guess ill understand but i can only hope that this is just a snag in my blanket and i can one day attempt to mend it until then your in my heart and on my mind each and everyday
