I am tired of living by other peoples standards and I am taking the reigns of my life in my hands and I slapped them and going full gallop. I am living on MY terms. I am doing my modeling I took a nude shoot with Mirror Ball Studios.I am done being nice cause "its the thing to do" at least to people who don't mean shit. I am done holding my tongue. Letting people treat me like Iam less. Fuck them. I don't talk to my family anymore. I have nothing in common with them. I am calling in favors I am getting my ink done. I have been there for so many people in my life and now I just need to know that when I falter and I need a hand that they are actually there.
I am tired of being there for people who can't even call to say "hey." I don't regret my life, but I am going out on fire. I am losing weight not for THEM but cause I want to. I am singing at the top of my lungs when I want and if someone wants to go toe to toe with me better know there is a black panther living in my eyes.
Offically, I am still the same loving girl in my heart, but if you're trying to hold me here and bring me down I will burry you. I do not burn bridges but I can forget to put them on the map to my life. Note that MY life. Some of you know that a long time ago things started change. I am tired of the High School bullshit. I am beyond and above that. Screw you and keep it to yourself. I will no longer keep my peace you wanted a war I will fire a shot that will make you think twice before you mess with people when they have had enough
No nothing is wrong. For the first time things are PERFECTLY clear. I am spent too much time making everyone else happy. I have put my life on hold for family, and gotten what? An ulser. I have held my tongue and choose not to fight when I want to stand up and hollar "Wait a fucking minute, that's it get your own personality and go fuck yourself with someone elses borrowed time" Talk all you want, but I am not afraid to come up to you and say "Got something to say to me or about me."
FUck that nice shit. I am done being walked on, step on me and I will bite. Most of you don't need to hear that, but I think its about time I fucking woke up and shook myself up. Bout f'ing time. This is my shouting it to the roof tops.
For a lot of you this isn't going to change shit, but for some people who call themselves friends and then talk to entertain themselves. Maybe next time you'll think before pissing of a secret holder, someone who always seems to see and know shit. Maybe you'll think next time you open you're mouth to gossip, and realize, it goes both ways.
And Tj you'll apprecate this comment "HE was so worried about covering his ass, he had no idea I was creeping up straight to the face. I stood through your shit now guess what I am the only one I see clean."
