TJLAS's blog: "quoes relating to me"

They say its not the falling that kills you but rather the sudden stopping that does it. In many ways this is true, like its not when the car is spinning uncontrollably that you die, No its the slamming into to telephone pole that make it to where you'll never live again. This verse has always kinda been something to live by for me in my life I've realized every time i fall it inst the fall that hurts, cripples, or even kills me but rather when i suddenly stop....i may not be literally dead, but in the metaphoric sense it kills me evry time.
It may not make sense to thoses who actually read this but it does to me... when i fall i fall so hard that I can't honestly say that i can lift myself up because the last time was the hardest. let me put it like this....i fell i landed on cement...just for weeks later when i'm finnally getting myself on solid ground i start falling again...is this the endless cycle of my life?
How am i going to be able to stop falling if in the back of my mind i realize the reason for the hard landing is just to brace me for the (metaphor) the next sudden fall... or perhaps i'm realizing the reason i fall like i do now is because i was never actually done falling.

When tragic things happen to people like for instance a near plane crash when the passengers get off the plane they practically kiss the ground for they are greatful they landed safely....thats not the case with me at all. Is it that i like the feeling of not knowing when i'm going to make the wrong move and fall again or is it because i've never really been stable enough on land that i could kiss the ground and be thankful for landing safley.

Its been a while since i was able to ramble about anything but i guess it a way i got my charm back....and like always then comes the falling....thogh for once i would like to land on sometype of padding maybe then it won't hurt as mush this time, maybe it will. Though i'm not a very religous personn not in the slightest bit but i do know that latly i have been preying for a soft landing thats all i want that all i need just a soft landing....and of course a phillie...