I'll never understand how people can believe in things that just can't be real, even when all evidence proves them wrong. They continue to cling to the belief in ghosts, gods, aliens, or government having any positive value to society.
At the same time I'm supposed to believe that there's some way I can ever find someone and be happy, even when all the evidence says the opposite. I'm expected to cling to some hope that if I just change the right things in my life and hold on long enough things will change. I've tried all my life, even thought there was hope for awhile, but nothing ever really changes. I've done everything I can.
I'm tired of being alone, but I can't take having hope and losing it again. I don't see anything that can change things at this point. All I can do try and forget what it felt like to have hope, because it was never real.