i have finally gotten just bout everything back to normal. ive got a great job, finally my own place for the first time, a wonderful, wonderful man that means the world to me, and im bout to have my college classes starting soon. it feels great having all that other shit off my chest and starting new. i thought i had seriously fucked my life up beyond repair cause of choices i have made the last 5 years but then i had a friend sit down and talk to me bout everything i needed to change and she helped me get there. 2 days after i got this job i got an apartment. its great. now i can do ne damn thing i want to now. as soon as i get my comp and internet i will be able to start my college classes and get my business degree and by the time i get my degree i will be gettin married and then im opening up my restuarant. i cant wait. im just greatly releived that everything has started turning round for me cause if it hadnt of at the rate i was goin, i was probly goin to end up in a gutter dead somewhere. but i thank my wonderful boyfriend blake for supporting me the whole thru and my best friend helping me acomplish what i havent been able to do in the past 5 years....