was thinking about how charaters in storys narrorate thier life and they are the main charater. if my life was a story i would only be a side note, you would be my main charater.
You know the feeling you get when your really little and you know your getting alot of presents and exactaly want you wanted for christmas or your birthday? when ever i see you, i get that same giddy feeling inside.
Do you know the feeling when your cats dies, your dog runs away or your parents fight. Thats how i feel now knowing i am losing you again.
I guess you could all call me really pathetic, i would probley agree. why shouldn't i agree i'm like one of those people, fighting for a lost cause.
No one knows whats best for you but yourself. i have always been told that but what do you do when your own mind can't answer you anymore with out everything ending in failure some way. Or even better it has not idea what so ever.
Your screwed
It hurts when you can picture a life of happiness for yourself and you can make yourself be all giddy for a moment in your life and then you smash it becuase you know it will never happen.
It's horrible to see a light at the end of the dark tunnle, but you know that it is growing smaller and you will never reach it.
It's terrifying to reilze that your finally going to be on your own and free and then notice you will be completly alone forever now.
i was thinking about all the things i want to say but never will becuase i am only wasting my breath, because my words will never reach your heart in time.
I shed a tear
i watch you walk away
I cry
I know your leaveing me
I shatter
I know you'll stay around
I crumble to the ground
But it will never be the same as haveing you in my arms forever
