Tell me as i race for the edge
was i all you dreamed of
was i everything you wanted?
tell me as i sink the blade home
was i really worth all the drunken fights?
every tear you ever shed at my hand
every ounce of blood i drew
and still you stuck by me
tell me
will this make you happier?
i'll sing my own dirge with the lost drop in this bottle
and the final bullet in this gun
i never meant any of it
or hell
perhaps i did
i just wanted to love you
hold you
keep you mine forever
but i was scared...
so scared...
of losing you
of losing control...
of myself
myself
i was my greatest fear
and i can't change the things i've done
but i can stop the things i will do
i'm not strong enough to change
i wouldn't even know how
i...
i can't keep from hurting you
every step i take down this road tortures you more
every breath i take removes a part of you
every day i live kills you
i can't keep from hurting you
but i can stop killing you
love always
even in the dark
