*~Half Truths~*
I was in this place where I didn’t matter.
Spiraling down into nothingness
Back where I didn’t want to be
A place of empty words and un-kept promises.
All I realized was I didn’t deserve better.
This is the life I was meant to live
That all changed.
I had a wake up call.
The brutal truth was given to me
By someone closer to me than my family.
He helped me realize I deserved better
Then this destructive lifestyle I was falling into.
A true friend that will always be there.
A person I cherish dearly.
He told me something that made me cry.
I broke down when I looked at who I was becoming.
A person I hated and longed to leave behind.
I want to go back to liking me for me.
And rid myself of empty promises and hurtful truths.
The only truth is I am done,
Done with the memories and words that only bring me down.
So goodbye to the one person that makes me drown in my
Own thoughts of inflictions I put on myself.
The only thing is.
It’s finally time for me.
We tell ourselves that we need to change.
But sometimes it’s that one person who’s voice
Replays in your mind to help you come to
That important decision.
Making my mind up and turning my
Back on a hurtful past.
All is left is moving forward to finding myself.
And finally letting myself believe
I deserve better than half truths,
And un-escapable dreams of meaningless passion.
Teresa Abeyta©
August 28, 2005
