I have finally come to the conclusion that love is one of the most painful things to go through .
It's hard being in love with someone and knowing that they are the one that you want to spend the rest of your life with and you have to wait for them to decide how they feel about you and what they want . And already being in a relationship with them for so long that you are already attached and have to distance yourself from them to give them time to think . That just makes it even harder . I can't even begin to explain what I'm going through right now . It's like my heart has just been ripped in pieces and he is standing there holding it in his hand deciding what to do with it . I'm finding out that sometimes love hurts but its often worth it and in the end everything works out . I hope this is one of those times . It's so hard not to start crying now when I find other small things that make me think there could be someone else although he tries to assure me there isn't . And until today I believed it . But now I'm just not so sure anymore . Every day the pain digs itself deeper creating a hole within my heart . Can it ever be fixed ? Well I'm done ranting for now .
