i was told by my wife of 22 years that she was no longer in love with me...its very hard to face that when you are still in love...but it is what it is...and because of todays economy neither one of us have the resources to start anew....so now im here at a home that no longer feels like a home....i never felt more alone in my life....and we dont hate each other...she feels so guilty that shes causing me the pain that she has caused me...so much so that she wants to make sure that im not lonely...she wants to find someone that can replace her in my heart.....but i do appreciate it....see as wierd as it may sound i need to be loved i need to be wanted by someone..my greatest fear is that ill be alone for the rest of my life..i feel so lost and alone..at this point i dont care whether i live or die.....i dont want to wake up anymore..i rather be dead than face a life where im left to feel alone and worthless ....i dont think i have anything that anyone would find worthy...maybe its me....i guess im not worth loving
