Home:
Has anyone thought about how such a funny word home is? I mean think of it, people are homeless, home sick, homebound, and so on…but what does that four-letter word really mean? It could be the place where one comes from, maybe a place in ones mind where things are right, where the pain stops. A place where good times and bad times seem to meld to together and all is safe still or such a horrific place they can’t look back on. Some get stranded a million miles away from home and they can’t find their way back to where things are right.
Maybe it’s not a place at all, but a shelter for a heart to grow in safety, a net so to speak to catch you when you fall. I thought once home was a far distance place where you could not get to on foot, or physically, not to mention alive. Those are also distant thoughts that have been wiped away from a not so clear mind. I guess you can say I miss home, I miss fitting in, I miss being needed and wanted, I miss my shelter where I had it all. I miss home where I was welcomed when I was sick, down, up, or for that matter just me.
I am looking to build a new home for this old heart of mine that has been tired way to long…I guess just not long enough for anyone else’s likings. I have been on my way looking for pieces to this new home and so far it’s a pretty long trip, but who’s counting the mile. I would just like another chance to make thing’s right, I would like to take the time and spend some time at home….I would like let everyone know that their hearts have a home here with me, well that is the people I have wronged. I got a long way back home now and well you know what, I am taking every step with forgiveness and apologies. Giving and taking along the way, leaving what I don’t need and not over staying my welcome, not to over step those bounds and have respect for my fellow friends and new faces along the way. I will shake every hand, apologize where I can, make amends for the thing’s I did and make a better home when I get there. Until then I will just try to make thing’s as good as they can get.
