How I was almost a racist.
I know what you are saying if you know me, you are saying "You mean you are not a racist?" "You with all of your race, ethnic, and gay jokes?" Well then answer is no, now if you ask if I am prejudiced, then I would have to say yes. I make pre-judgments about people all the time based on how they dress, how they carry themselves, and who they hang out with. If I see someone dressed as a gang-banger, I assume they are a gang-banger, or a least a wannabe. Do I make jokes, sure, but it is funny to me. I don't say the jokes out of hate, and I always ask that if I cross a line, please let me know. That stuff is not as bad as it could have been.
I was watching documentaries on the KKK and Neo-Nazis on the history channel, and I was brought back to a time when I was growing up in Connecticut. My Dad was bringing us up racist, not so much against the Jews (honestly where we lived, I never even cared if other people were Jewish) but racist against Blacks and gay people (which if you know me, you know that later on my Dad is also a hypocrite). I never knew the terms "Black" or "African American" all I knew was "Nigger" "Burr-head" "Porch monkey" and "Mud-duck" to describe those people. I was told by my Dad "If I ever catch you holding hands with a nigger girl, I will shoot her, then shoot you". My and my brother were not only expected to defend ourselves from black kids, we were expected to beat them up if we ever saw them on the street. They never left our part of the area, and we never went to their area. Then one day their area caught on fire.
About a block from where we lived there were three big apartment complexes that were built to support workers from the old mill across the street that were a block from our house. Well their was nothing but black people renting out those apartments, maybe 40 families. They were lined up in a row like the roman numeral III, and they were very close together. Well one day, some kid was playing with matches and started a fire, that fire took out two whole buildings, the kid that lit the fire, died in the fire. It was a very quick very fast fire, allot of those families lost everything. And there was was dad on the front lawn, cheering on the fire. I still hear the cries from those families to this day. Not animal sounds as my dad would have had me believe, but very human sounds. A couple of years later, we moved to Cleveland. My brother and I were about to get a wake up call.
Our first day at Cleveland public school was unlike any other day we had ever had had school, first we had never gone to school where the Black kid/White kid ratio was reverse what we were used to. That first day of school my brother and I ended up both beaten up at the bottom of a stairwell. We got home, our dad beat us for getting our asses kicked by the "niggers". This from Mr. "Law", Mr "Wannabecopthatcouldn'tstayoutofjailhimself". This man worked a parking lot across from a gay bar as a security guard shooting BB's at the patrons. I lived, I learned, I made friends with some of the Black kids at school, I held the hands of a couple of Black girls, I played on the same teams as Black kids. I stop seeing race and just started seeing people, just like me. Some I hated, but it was because they were assholes.
Years later, I was working in the flats and I made friends with one of the cleaning ladies their. She was an Ol' Black girl from down south. She would tell me stories about how her and her friends would get beaten by white dudes so bad they wished they would they would just get raped, just so so they could feel like the attackers saw them as human. She said I talked to her not just as another person, but as an equal. She said I was proof that all white people were not bad. I took it as a complement.
I watched those documentaries and I got to thinking, there are a ton of kids that are being raised racist, and raised to hate. Black kids and white kids, tons of them will never know what they will be missing in life. The white kids are being told "The white race is all there should be in America". Okay ass-clowns, we white folk don't even belong here, we belong in Europe. The Blacks were brought here to do labor that the white folks did not want to do, just like the Chinese, Irish, and now the Mexicans. In a perfect world we would all be sent back to our countries and this country would become a Native American nation again. But this is not a perfect world, or a perfect country, or a perfect white country for that matter. Facts is facts, nobody is going to go anywhere. The sooner people realize how stupid racism is the better. We all have to get along and work together, otherwise this nation will go the way of the Roman empire.
Now does anyone know any good polish jokes.............
Thanks for reading.
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