DOES THE HURTING EVER STOP? WIL IT EVER END? WHY DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE ALWAYS ABOUT HURTING AND GETTING HURT/ WHY CANT I HAVE A HAPPY TIME IN MY LIFE? WHY AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY? WHY DOES EVERYONE AROUND ME KEEP HURTING ME? IS IT A GAME TO THEM? IS IT FUN FOR THEM? DO THEY GET OFF ON IT? DO THEY LIKE PUSHING ME? DO THEY WANT TO SEE ME DEAD? DO THEY WANT TO SEE ME HAPPY? WHY CANT I BE HAPPY? WHY DOES EVERYONE SAY I HAVE TO BE HAPPY WITH MYSELF FIRST? WHAT IF I AM HAPPY WITH MYSELF? WHAT IF I AM .....................................................................................................GONE?