IT IS FUCKED UP HOW I GET TOLD TO TELL MY FEELINGS AND NOT BOTTLE THEM UP BUT WHEN I DO IM DOING WRONG. SO DO I SAY WHAT IS ON MY HEART AND HOW I FEEL OR JUST KEEP IT BOTTLED IN CAUSE IM DAMNED IF I DO AND DAMNED IF I DONT. IT IS LIKE GETTING TOLD IM IN LOVE WITH YOU BUT UR NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME . I AM TO THE POINT OF SAYING FUCK IT AND GIVE UP AND SHUT COMPLETLY DOWN IF I DIE I DIE IF I LIVE THEN I LIVE BUT WHY SAY HOW I FEEL WEITHER IT BE ON THE PHONE IN A LETTER IN A EMAIL OR ANYWAYS WHEN IT DONT MEAN A DAMN THING TO THE PERSON I WRITE IT TO OR TRY TO SAY IT TO.. AND WHEN I DO I GET TOLD IM PRESSUREING WHEN ALL IM DOING IS SAYING MY FEELINGS INSTEAD OF BOTTLEING THEM UP AND LETTING THE HAPPINESS STAY IN SIDE OR THE PAIN STAY IN SIDE FUCK IT THE MOTHER FUCKERS THAT CAUSED ALL THE DRAMA AND THE PAIN IN MY LIFE CAN KISS MY FUCKING ASS CAUSE KARMA IS A BITCH AND IM THE REAPER