I am lost in a sea of confusion and bound by the tie that binds.
I am in a place that I feel comfortable, yet I am afraid.
Conflict of intrest allow us to be apart and kinowing that can change doesn't make it any easier.
I feel once there is no boundries between us, you will just say goodbye.
No more communication and will let our relationship die.
I have accepted many things andI have only me to blame for the conflict in our relationship.
I feel like I am a switch that only gets used to be turned on and turned off when done with.
I learned a hard lesson when I spoke to soon and expressed what I felt and still do.
I want to share my friendship with you and I am not sure you do.
I am torn between persuing and ending.
I have cried many nights from the fear and flight.
I opened my wings to you and have done nothing more except express my feelings too.
Am I the only one who feels the way I do, you say that you do things quietly and on your terms.
I am awaiting what will happen next truly afraid of a door closing in my face.
Life is funny that way, sometimes I feel like the bug and other times like the windsheild.
I know you have stated a few things on how you feel.
But how do I know if they are for real?
Well these are my feelings as of now...
I will look for you to respond just awaiting the
when and how.
written 7/26/07
