Devils Psycho Bitch's blog: "cheating S.O.B"

I think I finally lost my hubby to the internet bimbos for good. Its New years and I didn't even get a kiss or a happy new years from him. I feel so stupid for caring so much, but he got drunk and played imvu all night. I know its all fake but he tells them hes single and thats not right. I do love him so much I get so jealous... I know what your thinking a man isn't worth it and give up but I can't. I have tried to hate him, then hes so caring and loving  then cant forget we have 3 great kids.... but I'm getting the hint he hate me so much that every time he gets a chance he get he hurts me , he does and I think he's enjoying it... 

I don't get why he likes being mean to me.... I mean hell, I get his clothes out for work, rub his stinky feet, wash his dirty clothes, fix him dinner and when he's too wore out I go get his ciggs. So why does everyone else gets the "I love you" from him and not me? Its not far!! I'm a good person, the only thing right now is I'm looking for a job. Does that give him a right to talk to these stupid hoes? I miss him so much I want my husband back, the man I married 10 yrs ago, the man that would make sweet love to me as much as he could, the man that told me he loved me, the kind hearted man that would help ppl when they are down Wheres that man?!!!