I talked to Taylor this morning. I asked him if he regrets what happened between us New Year's Eve. He said yes. Ouch. He said yes because I have a girlfriend. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry. What I'm trying to figure out is if he's so happy, why did he cheat on his girlfriend with me? If you're truly happy with someone, you have no reason to cheat on them. My heart just aches right now. I now know I'll never have a chance with him. I just need to move on. I might as well just stick with Andy. But then there's Tom. I plan on going to see him at the end of the month. I like him too. I was hoping things would be different with Taylor. I want someone who lives closer. Guess not cuz that door just got slammed in my face. Fuck my life.