XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "Real stories"

I just remember 

when i gave up everything for you .. 

at the cost of losing time with my family .. 

the stupid choices i made .. 

the ones i can't take back 

how mad i made my family .. 

so sad .. 

so now even though it hurts i have to be real .. 

i have to face the facts .. that i could of lost them .. 

if they decided that was to be the case .. 

how many years will it take before i can go home again .. 

 or will i send her my only daughter and give her everything she desires in this world while i wait .. for another opportunity to spend time with them  again ... i don't deserve them right now .. but i need them more then ever .. 

If i only had a crystal ball sometimes i would of made different choices ... 

but since i  don't  here i am till i get myself  out ...