Who the hell am I trying to fool??
I'm not fine.
I'm not going to be okay.
I'm freakin out and I don't know how to deal.
I keep telling everyone, "I'm okay, I'll get over it, I can deal, I'm a strong woman."
Well, FUCK THAT!
I'm at the end of my rope and my grip is slipping fast.
But there isn't anything anyone can do.
I have to deal with this on my own.
I know I'm searching for a freakin miracle here.
Something has to give soon.
Or this bridge is gonna fall, and take me with it.
Then what?
Crying is wasted.
Banging my fists against the wall is futile.
I think I'll just sit here in my own hell.
Anyone want to join me?
I thought not.
