Really... very sorry for being so down lately. With my operation coming up- having my lower intestines removed- (April 5th... wish me luck- and a fast recovery... and hope they don't find cancer) you would think fate would be just a little more kind.
Nope.... all at once the bad news starts pouring in from every corner of my life. Starting with my boyfriend leaving me. Nice timming don't you think? My brother decided to enlist... he's going into the special forces- well done bro, thanks. And other little details, that alone seem trivial, but compounded seem foreboding, like a granite tower of obstacles.
Anyway... not looking for pity or sympathy... I want to appologize for the little breakdowns I seem to be having along the way. Seems like the closer I get to my surgery- the less optimistic I can remain. Please just be understanding and patient... I'm distracted too... so when I don't have time to talk or I blow you off- understand it's not you.
I'm strong- I tend to rebound from little set backs very quickly.
So, bare with me...... and if we do talk- don't bring up any of these situations as a topic for discussion- distract me!!!
Denial is always a fun game to play!!!!
