Been sitting here kicking myself in the ass for letting things get to me that I have no control over and wanted to say I'm so sorry for the bulletins I posted earlier today I'm just so much on edge from everything I've been through these past months I've been sick and had to take a minute to let you alll know that each one of you will forever hold a place in my heart and soul that nobody can ever take from me and I will never forget all the love and compassion you have shown me through all of this hell, I got upset because of someone that means less then nothing to me that apparently has a sad life and little to do but spread lies and try to destroy the wonderful friendships I have made that nothing can ever take from me, they can steal my photos, they can say horrible things about me and I know that there are many that will believe the lies and turn against me thats the only regrets I have in all of this, but I have no way of changing that so sadly I have to accept that, but for you My Angels that love me unconditionally and without passing judgment with only love for me I thank God for they honor of having you each in my life, as most of you know I had a tumor removed from my pancreace a couple of weeks ago and was to return monday to see if they got it all or whatever steps where still needed, I started throwing up blood again this past tuesday and reset my appointment for 9 A.M in the morning so hope to know more then and will let you all know whats going on, again I am sorry and hope you all understand the stress I'm under right now, will try not to vent any more of the negative on you all, my love and friendship for you My Angels is eternal and will remain so faithfully promise..