Boobalicious Paper Doll's blog: "2009"

9:55pm I think I should let him know how I feel. I've been honest, but it's been hard... I don't know where this is going. I think I'll tell him in person... What I truly feel. It kills me on the inside. I'm not usually a girl who shows emotions. I think I will tell him how insecure I am... I am afraid to call him... I miss hearing his voice, and I haven't told him. I think he should know.... thanks to him, I've become emotional. If he asked me to start anew with him... I would in a heartbeat. I think I'm the shy one... He should know, if he doesn't, then now it's known I know how I feel... I think he should know... in the little bit of time I've "known" him He really is a decent guy. Any girl could fall for him... Any girl could be me too.. I think he should know one more thing... I'm scared of all of this... Mainly because I like you a lot And......... it hurts...... 9:58pm Now if he didn't know I wrote this about him then he'll never know. He just doesn't get it. I haven't felt like this in a while. It's a pretty damn good feeling, but at the same time it's scary. It's been years since I felt like this. I hope all my insecurities don't get in the way and I hope everything works out. Otherwise... it wasn't worth getting hurt over. 9:59pm -- one more thing... you showed me the best time I've had in a long time this past new year's eve. You have no idea. I really enjoyed the time we spent together that night, but I've been afraid to call you even if it was just to hear your voice. Sorry if I haven't called... I've tried to text at least to say Hi and wish you well. But if you don't feel the same, it's ok. All you have to do is tell me and I'll move on while everything's still fresh. Just so you know... I gave you all of me and I was yours for the night. Even if it was just that night, I still thought it was nice. 10:02pm