and I really don't care what anyone thinks at this point. It's time for me to be a biotch so I don't blow up at the people that mean the most to me.
First fubar stuff....I have 1,088 friends, 23 family members and 1,146 friends and only 4 people in my contest? Hell, only about that many actually reposted my bulletin and to those that did, I say thank you!!!!!!!!! I don't care if you don't want to be in it, but help me spread the word please? I'm usually one of the first one's there helping people out when they need it. Well screw that! I'm tired of being used.
On the subject of being used....or taken for a fool or whatever....my ex is driving me up a freaking wall!!!!! Not my ex-hubby, my ex-boyfriend who cheated on me. He KNOWS I'm in a relationship, and yet he won't stop asking for things. I'm not going into details because I don't think it's necessary. If you're a man, you know and any other woman knows exactly what he wants.
But yet!!!!! He is SOOOOOOO in love with the girl he hooked up with after we split and he's trying to live a better, Godly, life based on her influence and to try and get her back. They split for some reason or another, not for cheating like we did...I don't know don't care. WTF??? How can he claim to be so honest, and all that crap when he's behind her back doing what he's doing? GOD I hate people like that.
So, he posted a blog on myspace and sent a message for his friends to read it, so I did and sent him a message back nicely telling him to screw off, yet again. I don't know why I let him get to me.
Oh yeah, and he starts radiation therapy for his pancreatic cancer today. Don't I just feel like the nicest person in the world?
That's my problem....I have a huge heart and want to make everyone around me happy. It doesn't matter to me if it absolutely KILLS me, so long as they're happy. I need to figure out a good balance, and I just can't. I'm ready to walk away from everything at this point.
