Metal Belle's blog: "Heathers BLOGS ..."

my life as of recent has become well whats a good word to use other than fucked.

starting back in january i had a lot of things start to happen, and there are tons of things that have occured since then up until now.

lots of people have an opinion about my life and what they think they know. but i would have to say people shoud live the things i have lived and then i kinda get the feeling you would say im thankful and happy you made it through and that your still here figthing.

there a few people in particular who i have watched word themselves and write somethings to make what they have done to me seem so easy and that i am the bad person in all of this. i beg to differ however.

i know what it is like to be treated in some of the most horrible situations by better half i kinda feel like that makes me able to treat people not that way and better than that, and to be able to admit when i am wrong and learn from my mistakes.

i was with someone for 6 years and had 2 children with them, and this person who is now my ex husband did some things to me that made it un imaginable to believe. and yet i still never strayed from the marriage.

and now i cant quite figure out why it seems to me that the pain is happening again in a twisted way a different way mind you but someone seems hell bent on takin my heart and making it apart of there love game. i love this person and always will.

but i cannot make them understand that it hurts and its my heart not a toy. i wanna be there i do honestly but i cant be.

there are no details needed because unlike them i dont want people to get the wrong idea in maybe how i word myself. but maybe when these individuals read this or maybe when they re read some of things they have typed they will see wut i mean with how they lefft out a lot and a lot of people had a lot of wrong comments and answers

it would be much easier if it were what these misinformed people commented about but its a lot more involved and risky.

i however am done. with all of it. i am a good person who deserves good people and amazing love because once i put my broken pieces back together i will be an amazing woman to be with .