so thge news is in and its not good. doctors have givin us 2 days to 2 weeks left with mom. and its been about 3-4 days so far. so theres very little time left.
im back in MA. so im can be with mom and the rest of the fam for her last days. So most likely i will not be online for a bit. but thats besides the point.
the main focus is for mom to have no pain and to be here for my dad and sister. whom i know will fall apart the moment she passes.
2 day was hard for me.....seeing her there in the hospital waiting to die. and occasionally drifting to an old memory/dream while being fully awake. and to see my mother powerless over something breaks me. to watch her try to stand and not be able to. to sit by her side on her last days is the greatest honor any son could have. to be able to comfort her and have her be assured that its ok...and i/we will always love her. she was always there for me.... so its time for me to be there for her.
i guess i would say im lucky.....especially since some ppl never get a chance to say goodbye... and for that i am grateful.
steve (rp)
