Where to start, or maybe its the end. Dont know. You go threw life always second guessing yourself. Trying to figure out the right way to go. Why is it no matter which way you go it always seems like your going in the wrong direction. So which one is the right way? Ive never know love so dont know what its like to lose it. Is this emptyness that im always feeling or is this how im supposed to spend my life. Always helping others, making sure they dont lose there love, but never seeing mine. How can i sit here and give others addvice about matters of the hart when it doesnt seem that i have one. Everyone around me seems to have found it if not right now at least once in there lives. I dont know. People tell me try hard, it will come. What ever im done trying. With every day i feel myself becoming more and more cold harted. I wouldnt say i was jaded because in order to be jaded you have to of gone threw something to put you there. Well i suppose im feel i have been jaded by life so guess i am. Well ether way fuck it.