Well, what a week!
Not much to say except it really really sucks. I am jealous of time a certain someone spends with others. I know jealousy is terrible and I shouldn't do it.
Funny thing, I was never jealous when I was married, but he destroyed my self-confidence over 11 years
I have never been a jealous person and I hate the way it makes me feel. I feel whiney, bitchy and I don't even want to be around myself so can't figure out why I would want to make the people I care about suffer.
I know I will get in trouble for not talking to this person, but I have a hard time communicating my feelings, most of the time it is just easier to bury them under myself.
Besides how do you tell someone u care about u r jealous, when u shouldn't be in the first place. I just think if he knows what a problem I am he will leave me.
Oh well, guess I just got to learn to get it under control or something.
Any suggestions? I would really appreciate the help
