u know my world is still falling a part around me but maybe thats what i want maybe its happing for a reason maybe im going to learn sumthing out of it maybe ill find my self and be happy once again havent been happy in a very long time just seems like when u really need a friend they just not here i mean i have sum but do they really understand what im going through they say they do but i just dont think they do and now he wasnt to stay married i just dont see how thats going to work when there is not trust there is nothing i do love him but i dont love him the way i should u know i can do the same things he has done but does two wrong doesnt make a right i hate to hurt people but damn he hurt me to many times its hard to forgive if they keep doing the saem shit over and over blah i desrve to be happy right so do my kids i hate living where im at but o well no other place to go o well we all learn form or mistakes and what we go thorugh makes us who we are right well enought for now my head hurts and i just dont care at this point any more until next time yes things are mispelled but i dont care lol
