I just recently found out that a friend of mine has cancer. I will not say his name because he is here on fubar. He is an ex of mine, but also a really good friend. It's stage 3 right now and the doctors don't know if they will be able to remove it or not yet. He's scared.. as we all would be... and so am I. I feel a little selfish because I don't want him to die... I wouldn't know what to do with myself.. I would go clinically insane. It's tearing me apart inside and out.. and I know it's breaking him down too. He's in his late 20's, but sounds like an 80 year old man because it's effecting him that bad. He has a 5 year old son also.. I'm not sure if he knows or not. I'm sure he can tell something is wrong with his daddy. He is the best father I have seen.. he tries to be. He doesn't deserve this.. out of all the people in the world he isn't the one who deserves this. He doesn't do drugs.. hardly drinks.. he's an awesome person. Why him? He coughs up blood... I'm weak.. and so is he. He's my best friend.. why does this have to happen?? All he ever did was try to do the best thing no matter what it was. Tried to be a good person even if he slipped at times, we all do. Life is cruel.. IF there is a god (I'm agnostic) why would he let this happen to a person who doesn't deserve ANY of it? I don't get it. If you have enemies please try to work things out to where there are no bad things between you. You never know when someone is gonna leave forever.
Babe.. you will always.. ALWAYS be thought of. Remembered. Missed. I hope you can fight through this, but if you don't.. please know I don't think anything bad about you. Never did. You're an amazing person. And the best friend anyone could ever be. I'm so lucky to have met you and have you in my life. If the cancer wins.. know I will be thinking about you when I am 90 years old and still missing you. Still hurting. Still crying...
