so i realized today that i havent written anything here lately.....actually i havent done much of anything lately...its depressing as hell. day in and day out its the same routine. not something i'm unaccustomed to but something that i dont enjoy when the routine is left to the whim of my own boredom. well i've decided to try to change that along with a few other things in my life. first and foremost theres a 98% chance i'm going to re-enlist with military this month. which means i'm headin for MP school in september. i have annual training coming up in august which should be fun. i must say as much as i've hated the military at times and wanted to get out now that the time has come that my enlistment is ending i realize that the military actually helped me in ways i couldnt see until now. it gave me structure to my life. something to do. help when i needed it. and at this point if i do re-enlist and they want to send me back overseas well fuck it i'll go in a heartbeat. anything is better than this daily monotony. this daily boredom isnt me and never has been until now. i need to break out of it one way or another and if another deployment is what it takes then so be it.
secondly this thing of going to the bar constantly needs to be stymied. costs too much money and is almost pointless to me anymore. whats the point? go to the bar talk to some random people who i'll never talk to again, drink, and spend money that could go to other more important things. so whats the point? i dont see one anymore. it used to be fun but now its just getting old. or maybe i'm just getting old, i'm not so sure anymore i do know that i am getting older and need stop acting like a brand new 21 y/o. hopefully my realizing all the things i talk about here is just me maturing to a point that i can live with.
so thats whats going on in my utterly boring life right now. while many more things fly thru my mind at any given time (some more than others) i wont bore or depress you with them. so with all this being said i'm signing off.
