LITTLE BRO
Where did the time go?
Little bro
I see you rushing headlong to grow up ASAP
Just like me
But I had no partner in crime until you came into my world
I was 23 when you came to be
Both of us wishing the age gap was only a skip instead of a jump
You were my monkey, you were my friend, you were someone upon whom I could always depend
Did I choke you little bro?
With the tentacles of overprotection
Going from making you feel secure to inwardly screaming for a way out
Whatever you do, stay you and stay true
Remember I said you could be anyone and do anything no matter what the world said
Remember too that I always included myself in that group
Practice makes perfect were your sister’s often repeated coaching words that she also needed to hear
It is always the striving that mattered for you know through words and deeds that no one is perfect, especially not me
I was witness to your light, your fire, your truly unique exuberant nature
But speaking of fire
I must acknowledge this
I will humbly do penance for any and all grievances you suffered because of me
Due to my own failures, insecurities, frailties, and misjudgments
Did I break my own rules?
You know you could call me a fool
Open eyes, open mind, open heart and open arms will always be there for you
Even when I fall short you are my cohort of choice
Choices
Always telling you that you have them, we all do
Did I forget to mention they weren’t always easy?
Someday, and it will come real soon
You will take all that you have received
The good, the bad, and the ugly
And become the man you want to be
The setbacks, the hurts along with the triumphs will make you stronger
And you will be so much wiser than your big sis
I look up to you now and not just in height
For you are poised to take the grandest flight
So whatever our faults, we have shared many more joys
Your big heart, your warm smile and your dogged determination
Have had you surmount educational obstacles with the grace of your many victorious spectacles only a beast sk8r could master
You and I are worlds apart but in my eyes we’ll always be close at heart
If you think I come down too hard, you may be right, but I never meant any slight
Recall my pleas to you that I need kicks in the ass too
Forgive me if in my clouded turbulent life I did not see your agony and strife
The habit of me always reaching out and crumbling inwards when no one came forward
Making me blind to where I stumbled and upon whom I tripped over, but
Nothing and no one, not me, not you
Can stop me from loving you, being so very proud of you
I’ll still be here, but not in your face, knowing you can succeed in any time and place
You are my teacher, my confidant, my little bro
And so it is with deepest love that I let you go
But no, not where it counts, you will never be far from me
Once upon a time there was a big sister and a little brother
And ever after she would love him like no other.