i feel so lonely today. actually i guess that it started last night.
A friend of mine asked me to come out and visit in Clinton, which isnt too far, and i though SWEET!! it's my night off!! but then he changed his mind after i got a sitter and everything. I would normally have just gone to hang out with my friend Alex, but his gf was in town, and they were making thier togas for tonights going away party for him. so niether of us thought that would be a good idea for me to come over. not that alex and i 'do' anything with eachother we just chill out and play world of warcraft.
so i decided to go to walmart, and snap some new hat pix. that got old fast...
I decided to call another 'friend' and ask what they were up to, but his phone was off, so i called another 'friend' and his phone was off too... guess everyone was out having fun. I posted a bulletin askin if anyone knew any good bars, i called alex to see if he knew any, basically the night was a bust.
this morning i woke up and didnt feel too much happier, but there wasnt really any way for me to fix it. i did the dishes, made the kids some food, etc. i've been doing laundry all day...
my friend mikey from back when i was in washington (state) im'd me and sent video/vocal feed of him and his baby girl, she's so cute. but she makes me sad because of soemthing that happend to me last year... we'll just leave it at that.
it was nice to talk to someone that i'm friends with in real life. someone that i frankly know that i could trust with my life. (you're the best mikey)
i'm trying not to feel sad, but it's hard. it feels like everyone is moving away, ignoring me, or says that they want to see me/talk to me and then changes thier mind after i've made the arrangements.
am i missing something? is there something wrong with me?
WTF? why am i asking this... i know there's nothing wrong with me... i just feel like there is...
