PunkStarChik's blog: "Book Of Shadows"

I turned in rent the other day. Last month of paying rent for this place. I should be moving into the other place soon. The lady will be moved out by Saturday, then a simple clean to the place because I guess she keeps it pretty well clean then I can move in. Then step one will be complete after I get all moved in.

I'll be at work the next four days. Sometime on my next days off, I will be going to the court house to get the divorce papers. I was thinking about doing it this week but my mind was all down in the gutter. But next week for sure. Mr...Oh I just have to print out the divorce papers and then yeah...yeah right..it's been weeks..months...is it that hard to print it? Too fuckin' busy being with your damn chick who is barely legal.

Today I packed up more of the kitchen. It's almost empty. Once again, he didn't clean up his shit like he said he would and everything was rottening in the sink. So, me being annoyed with it, I cleaned it all up....cleaned up the kitcen real well too. One more time....If he messes up the kitchen after I spent a long time scrubbing the place, I'm going to rip his head off.

Mother in law has been here since Sunday or Monday, I forget. She's slowly getting her stuff out..I think. I had thrown a bunch of photos into the garbage that I spent good money on last year of me and Rich..you know..those potriat photos...I spent over around 150 bucks for all those pics. I had kept the ones of myself though, but tossed most of them in the garbage. His mom saw them in the garbage...looked at me and said "I'm going to steal these photos" I told her..that I didn't want the photos and I'm sure he doesn't so go for it. Why the hell would she want them? I know she is still upset that things are ending the way the are..but it's the way it is. I want so much to have him out of my life. I should of gone through the wedding, honeymoon and other pics we had and tossed them into the trash instead of just boxing them.

I donated a bunch of stuff to goodwill again. My wedding shoes...not sure what to do with the wedding dress.. I tossed the wedding candle that Rich had made..that unity candle or whatever. I'm going to pawn my wedding ring...it won't be much but I don't want it anymore. It's just a plain silver band...I don't care if I even just get a few bucks from it. I'm sure i'll get enough for a cup of coffee and that will be fine.

I went out to dinner with my mom today. We went to McGraths...a seafood joint. Dad was out with some guy like usual...hmm that sounds bad...no...he does a lot of church stuff and there's this guy, that it seems like he adopted as a son..looks almost like my brother, but they spend time a lot together. I think my dad feels like he's his son or something..since my brother and him aren't close. I wish that my brother would get close with mom and dad before it's too late...anything could happen. I was never close with my dad before, but our relationship has grown, which makes me happy.