Why are you haunting me?
Why won't you leave me be?
Why do you haunt my dreams?
Will you muffle my screams?
When I wake up alone at night
Dealing with the sudden fright
That I'll never see you again.
That I'm fighting and will never win.
That you've hated me all these years
Through all the silence, visions and tears.
I never meant to ignore you
I was just too stupid to deserve you.
I was young and blind, entirely too vain.
I was self-centered and mean, so very plain.
I never deserved you, you're a good man.
When I knew you, I was but a sham.
Using and taking, hurting everyone I knew.
Had I known, I would not have left you.
You were my best friend, I miss you now.
Before it all ends, I will find you, somehow.